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melancholy mood
Thursday, August 30, 2007 11:02 AM
here i am stuck at home. haizz.. total boredness. i wanna go out but mum doesn't allow. anyway, after some thought, macam malas gitu nak kluar. not in the mood. *melancholy mood*. &&, i'm fasting today so yeah, stay at home je lah eh. sleep maybe. with this kind of weather it's best to sleep. mum woke me up early in the morning just now. i was total frustrated seh. she asked me to accompany her go pasar. there i went with my swollen eyes. i kinda don't like it when people disturbed my peaceful sleep. irritating u know!!!
yesterday, went to kak sara's house to hantar kain with mum. dah lamer tak kak sara. she always outstation. the reason going there is to tempah baju lah kan! omg. come to think of it, tak sabar nak raye. i sent 2 sets of kain. one black and another green. and at the same time, i got no mood to raye. haizz.. see.. i'm contradicting. siao kan? hmm..
yesterday again, wasn't really a good day for me (and maybe you). i went to school with him to take my ezlink as i lost in school on monday during the captain ball match. i received a call the day before saying that they found my ezlink and i can come to school to claim it. you know how shocked i am to know that my ezlink was not with them!!! so as to say, they have yet to find my ezlink. what's worst is that none of the staff called me eh. so who the heck call me seh. my mistake lah, i didn't ask who the caller is. urgh~ so yeah, now i'm still waiting for the return of my ezlink. hmmm..
the reason for my melancholy mood is.. 'there's no more 'i love you more!'. i just realised that i'm just a WANT and not a NEED. let me share with u people, the difference of wants and needs. the definition of want is form taken by human needs as they are shaped by culture and individual personality; and the definition of need is needs are states of felt deprivation. direct translation in malay. NEED = PERLU; WANT = NAK. it's a total different thing ok. and i'm just a want to that someone.
according to him, love has faded.
anger is controlling him.
& that's the reason why. and that's why he treats me this way. i'm feeling very low and down.
shorter than my height is.
on the verge of breaking down, crying all night long. simply said, i give up.
gonna lose that hero any seconds.
i'll still keep to my words:
♥ holding on tight, never let go ♥
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