well, the melancholy mood is here once again. been feeling very very very sad and down for the past few days. honestly, i'm not sure why. many things had happened lately. things aren't that good between me&you. school sucks as always. dance training is getting tougher each day. i can't concentrate that much lately. my mind isn't that stable lately. i'm scared to laugh as eventually, i will end up crying. haizz.. but as they always say laughter is the best medicine. zapin hiphop was kinda fun actually but then very very very tiring of course. i sooo need to build up my stamina. i'm so weak.. not only that, i'm like soooo freaking fat!!! i need to get rid of theses fats on my body. i miss dk trainings. i'm so sorry guys as i'm unabled to help u this saturday. thousand apologies!
me&you are not really that good lately. i really hope things will be okay soon. i'm missing you eventhough if you don't miss me. so near, yet so far. it sucks big time ok. i hate it. other then that, at last abled to meet bestie. spend time together with her. i miss her soooo. and not forgetting scandarla. i love you gerls. obek plak, haha.. i sooo love the kiss on the forehead. at least, ade orang nak kiss lah kan. i love obek! (manje lah kan!)
someone says that i must be more like a girl in order to be treated like a girl. i guess that's the reason why he/she didn't respect me like any other girls. i'm like soooo sad and shocked to hear that. macam aper seh.. i mean girls are girls. they deserve the respect ok despite how they are. haizz.. i just wish that i could be more feminine. but that's how i am people. i realised that some people just can't accept me for who i am. if i can accept you for who you are, why can't you?? i really don't know why people detest me soo much. *hurt*
