here i am in the clubhouse, waiting for hero to fetch me. i am super duper bored. kyn didn't go to school. hero didn't go to school to meet me for his lunch. sadly, for my lunch, i ate alone. yeah, alone. haizz.. so pathetic.
ok enough, about today.
let me share about some things that has made my brain think, think and think.
IMAGINE!!!
imagine your family members say that you've changed. changed. totally changed. the one that you're closed to in your family, said that you're actually no more the person that he/she used to know. how do you feel? what's worst, people see you as someone who is so softspoken, well-mannered, someone that someone can rely on, but now! no more. you've changed. changed to someone who is over-outspoken, full of vulgarities, no more that little-miss-nice. but to you, you didn't change. how do you feel?
you think by being that way, that's the real you. but why the sudden eh? don't tell me that all the past years in your life, that's the fake you. how hypocrite! so the real you is the bad one, not the nice one.
haizz.. not only that, you're attached. and i mean, attached. but then actually, you have someone else. you like that someone else, someone who is one of your close friends. uhuh, close friend. i shall say this is more like a secret admirer. you're attached for years but then.... can't you for once, sit and think. think of your relationship with your boyfriend. the memories you had together. the time that you had spent together. think and try to reflect. not wasted? it's so easy for you to just have someone else. so what with the conflicts that you both are facing, go through it and try to improve on the relationship. not find someone else. but still to you, you are right. you want both, you love both! *selfish*..
now, all that i asked from you, is to have a time of your own. sit and think. go and do some soul searching. think, whether you are right or wrong. hope Allah opens your heart! insya Allah.
this is what one of my close friends share with me about her friend. yes, i know her. so.. yeah, this is for you. to anyone yang terase, jangan marah ye. but maybe you can change too. hee..
that's all.. take care korang..
p.s: i can't wait for gentarasa tomorrow!!! woohoo~~~
