here i am crying like nobody business, and no one was even there for me. i'm feeling very sad. very, very, very sad. plus GERAM. everyone is having a nice time with other people. but here i am in my dark room, blogging about this since i really got no one to talk to.
today, i found out that my mum intruded my privacy too by logging in to this lappy of mine, and just read whatever can found here. plus, i got to know that whoever and whenever i talked to someone, my siblings was like "pasang telinga" to every conversation of mine. i feel so rimas seh. seriously. things really changed eversince i "broke off" with hafiz. my mum is getting on my nerves every single day. she smsed the gfs about me, and so is hafiz. he smsed the gfs too. seriously people, i feel so rimas seh. f**king rimas.
salah ke? am i wrong to break up with hafiz? i'm just standing for my rights. tu je.. i just want to be free, and also be happy. yes, happy. i want to smile once again. but then, everyone seems not to care. they only care about hafiz's feeling. but how about me? so what he was hurt? he's hurt NOW after i asked to end this relationship but how about my feelings that was hurt for the last two years? nobody sees it. nobody knows it. so once again, i'm wrong right?
mum scolded me so badly like as if i really did a big mistake. she don't know anything and she acts like she knows everything that is happening around here. i'm really frustrated with her but there's nothing i can do about it. she really pissed me seh. why for once, can't she see her daughter being happy.. whey can't her? why think about that hafiz when he is not even her son. i'm really, really feeling sad seh people. really... it really turn me off when people intrude into my privacy. i really hate it ok. and sadly, mum and hafiz did that. what's wrong with these people eh? don't they like have any better things to do? huh? huh? stop bothering me lah, please.. i'm feeling so suffocated now.
come on lah people, i'm only 19. i just want to be happy. can't i?? i want to do whatever i want. tak boleh ke? i'm very tired seh, very tired. both emotionally and physically. people are attacking me. and i'm scared that i'll just break down. i'm not really that strong ok, i'm getting weaker each day.
oh today, i hate you so. oh God, please make me strong to go through all these obstacles. oh Girls, i'm so sorry to disturb your dates today. no worries, that'll be the last. oh Boy, i'm so sorry that all these happened because of me. so sorry... i'm sure you know what i mean.
-dyla. (crying miserably) not pms-ing ok, i'm really feeling down. in need of a big hug and a shoulder to cry on.
(p.s: try calling me, if i didn't reply your msgs)
sorry.
Thursday, August 21, 2008 2:51 AM
i'm sorry..
i don't wish to be like her.
kecantikan perempuan.
Monday, August 18, 2008 11:41 PM
ok, this post is very random ok. got nothing to do, so decide to update lah.
"kecantikan perempuan terletak di....."
i've asked around and i swear, i got different2 answers ok. cool-shit abes!!!
got some said that: "kecantikan perempuan terletak di........" (1) matanya. (2) paras wajahnya. (3) bentuk badannya. (4) rambutnya. (5) kakinya.
and paling kekek sekali, ada yang jawab, di bulu kakinya eh!! hahaha..
sungguhkelakar.com ok. imagine lah, lelaki perhatikan bulu kaki perempuan bila perempuan lalu..
kk, dah. my malay like taik lah.
bubbye! =)
a date with darla.
Sunday, August 17, 2008 2:20 PM
hello people.
yesterday, i went out with darla. an appropriate date eventhough it was a last minute one. but still, she made my day!!!
after meeting up at woodlands, we went to bugis. yea, bugis. among all places in S'pore cos according to this lady here, she's meeting someone at city hall lah kan. so yar, bugis pun bugis lah eh. had lunch at LJS den jalan-jalan. we spent most of time talking and talking instead of window shopping so yar, i didn't see anything there that attracts my attention. anyway, it's good lah since no $$$. (:
after that... jeng jeng jeng jeng jeng~
after the jeng jeng jeng jeng jeng, we jalan-ed kaki all the way to esplanade. best! saw the DHL balloon and reminded me that Dee nak belanje me naik that, u know. coolshit right! yeayea, can't wait. it's the birthday treat. the DHLs will ride together2. haha..
upon reaching esplanade, we found a good spot where according to this darla, where this is a chinese area. so not MATs and MINAHs. haha.. paderhal-paderhal. so again, we chat and talk like nobody business. come to think back of it, tak penat eh mulut kite. den went home at 8++pm. that's all.
now the photos!!!
my darla.
nice, right? i know. i took it okay!
another photo captured with my socalled-haprak handphone.
but it turned out to be nice lah seh. (:
at the esplanade toilet.
girls, they can never resist the mirror + camera.
last but not least, yours truly.
nice? i know.
hee...
klah that's all people.
peace be upon you.
take care..
&&, i miss hafiz S.
my one and only
Saturday, August 16, 2008 1:17 AM
hello people, i know i have been menyepi for quite some time.
updating my blog by introducing my one and only cucu who is much older than me..
yes, that's her. i'm so proud to see her picture at esplanade.
"i'm so proud of you lah, cu."
yes, i know, u wanna a close up right?
here she is, jambu kan?
see the nenek ok.
ok that's all folks.
assalamualaikum.
FURAMA
Monday, August 4, 2008 10:48 PM
Hello people.
My weekends were super fun. Accompanying the padukarians performing at Furama Hotel. Very the grrrrand. Actually, i don't know what to say but just want to upload these photos that i've just editted. (:
the small girls w/o Liana. different category lah kan. hee.. (=
yeap2, the super duper gilers. me just posing for the camera!
the girls with the padukarians.
Last but not least, me&you lah.
got sooooo many photos but these are some of them. check them out kat dayah's multiply kot!bler agaknye adiratna nye turn nak perform pat hotel ah?
joke of the day: "paduka's trophy is bigger and taller than adiratna's"
padehal, theirs are just..........check them out urselves!!!! padehal padehal..
come to think back of it, i love the editted version of hotel california that ikhwan and az made on the bus. hahaha..
standard lah with these people, you will laugh and laugh.
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